I realized that the role I had been playing became how many people saw me as a person. Instead of a critical thinker, I was simply viewed as critical.
I spent some time beating myself up over missed opportunities and blindspots that suddenly became so clear, then I started to learn how to let go.
I have started hugging my computer at the end of video calls with friends and family so I can recreate the feeling of an embrace. Strange? Possibly.
My body has a voice. Learning to listen to it was and is an important part of my emotional wellbeing and my overall mental health.